Anniversaries etc

Yesterday was the 3 year anniversary of my breast cancer diagnosis. 3 whole years... And what a 3 years it has been! In all honesty though, yesterday just felt like any other date. It's nothing special, and certainly isn't anything to celebrate. It's a date I just wish I could forget completely. Maybe next year...

As for the work situation, that's very much in the forefront of my mind. I am trying not to give it too much headspace, after all surely the reason I am off work is to allow myself a break from it?? But it's still there, rattling around my head.

Off to the docs tomorrow to see whether they will sign me off for a bit longer. Hopefully that will give work some time to sort the whole sorry situation out.

Race For Life

Two of my friends did the Race For Life today, with my name on their vests. I'm so proud of them, but couldn't face going to watch them. Does that make me selfish?? No, I don't think it does. I just need a lot of space between me and cancer at the moment. I really feel like I just need a break from it.

They've raised lots of money for cancer research though - so well done to them!

Having said that,now it's June I'm hitting anniversaries again... On Tuesday it will be 2 years since my first op (an unsuccessful lumpectomy). 2 whole years. Wow!

Happy Anniversary to me...

It was two years ago today that I received the terrible diagnosis that would change my life forever. On Friday 13 May 2005 at the age of 33 I was diagnosed with breast cancer.

A day I will never ever forget, but as time goes by a day I hope to think about less and less...

Feeling ropey

Hmm... Just when things were looking up I feel really ropey. I've been feeling a bit dodgy since I had the infusion of zoledronic acid on Wednesday. My head has been a bit odd, yesterday I felt sick and today I feel all fluey and have the mother of all sore throats. Not good.

So, after being back at work for 11 months I am off sick again, and let me tell you I am a bit peeved about that. I wanted to get back to my previous clean sickness record. I know it can't be helped but I just feel like I have fallen at the final hurdle. Another few weeks and I would have notched up a full 12 sickie free months. Hey ho.

Felt a bit sorry for myself last night too. Mostly cos I feel crap, and a little bit cos this is the Friday I was diagnosed 2 years ago (it's my "proper" anniversary on the 13th). I thought this particular milestone was going to slip by a little bit unnoticed this year but I seem to have stumbled onto it again...

2 years on...

2 years ago today I went to see my gp about a lump in my right breast... What a horrible scary time that was and one that I don't want to dwell on just now because I actually feel quite good at the moment.

Holidays and anniversaries

Today it is one year since I started chemo. So, to mark the occasion I am off on holiday, to a cottage for a well earned rest.

This time last year...

Today is the anniversary of my mastectomy. So, I have spent all afternoon in the pub with 3 of my friends I certainly feel a lot better now than I did a year ago! I left work at 2:30pm, which happened to be the time of my operation last year. How odd (it was definitely luck not judgement!).

Another anniversary

Today it is one year since op number one. I feel a damn sight better today than I did this time a year ago!! I was thinking about it last night and in some ways it seems like yesterday - but in other ways it seems like a lifetime ago. Weird.

Today I am going into town to meet my 2 managers for a pre return to work chat (plus a pub lunch ). I know it's silly but I am really starting to get nervous about going back on Monday. Not like me at all. Hopefully seeing them today will make me feel calm again...

More anniversaries

I am up bright and early today cos I've been to see my GP about going back to work. I am going back on 12th June (in 4 weeks). That should just about give me enought time to get my head round going back. I'm not really worried about it but have to admit it is a little bit daunting after so long off.

It's quite bizarre really, this time last year I was up at the hospital getting the dreaded diagnosis (well tomorrow is the exact anniversary but it was this Friday if you see what I mean). Here I am 12 months later, getting a return date for work. Funnily enough, the weather is exactly the same as it was 12 months ago.

Anniversaries...

Tomorrow it is a year since I went to se my GP about my lump. I have to confess I'm feeling a bit weird about that