Mammogram part 2

I've had my boob squished, and the results "will be posted to you in 4 weeks". So I'm gonna try and forget about it until the dreaded envelope appears. I might be wrong in thinking like this....but I have decided that if they had seen anything suspicious they would have sent me through for an ultrasound, like they did when I first went to the clinic last year. I know I don't get the results for 4 weeks, but they do have a quick glance at the slides to make sure they don't need to do them again. Anyway, that's my theory and I'm sticking to it!

I have to confess to having a little cry when I got back into the car. It just took me back to last year going back there (the hospital where they do the mammograms is a different one to where I had surgery/chemo etc). When they left me sat in the mammogram room (while they checked my slides) I nearly burst into tears then. Crikey! So, I've decided not to bother going into work this afternoon cos I am a bit emotional.

Mammogram

I've got my first follow up mammogram in an hour, and I feel sick. I hardly slept last night cos I couldn't stop thinking about it. I never used to be a worrier, so this still feels really alien to me. I don't know why but it seems worse cos I've just gone back into "normal" world by going back to work and WHAM I'm back into poorly, hospital world today.

Back to being a wage slave.

After 53 weeks off sick, I went back to work today...

So, that's day one over with. I'm really chuffed with myself now I really did get all nervous and couldn't sleep very well last night cos my mind went into overdrive thinking about it all.

Anyway, I drove to the car park I haven't been in for over a year, went to the sarnie shop I haven't been to for over a year... It was all quite surreal really. The ladies who work in the sarnie shop were really excited to see me, made me feel all welcome (they sent me a bunch of flowers last year - they are lovely). I then went into work to be greeted by a "Welcome Back" banner on the wall and balloons fastened to my chair Awww!

Quite a few people were off today so it wasn't too overwhelming, and I was pretty much left to it - just logged on my computer, read a few of the 1200+ e mails I have in my inbox, made a cup of coffee and did a bit of gossiping. It was good, I felt glad to be back.

I think I'll be having my official "return to work" interview tomorrow, cos both of my bosses will be in. The lad who has covered my job while I've been off is being left in place until I finish my 12 week phased return, so I intend to ease myself in nice and gently. Plenty of time for them all to get used to the new me, I really don't want to turn into the workaholic I used to be...

One thing though - I am shattered!! I bet I sleep like a log tonight.

Have you seen my get up and go?

I feel a bit odd today...I can't quite put my finger on it but I've lost a bit of my oomph. It's half past 3 and I have done NOTHING yet today. I keep thinking about all the things I could do with sorting out before I go back to work, and then I just sit here and don't do any of them... I did a bit of retail therapy yesterday, and the clothes are still in the carrier bags where I left them when I came in yesterday. Has anyone seen my get up and go? Please can you send it to me if you find it cos I need it.

Another anniversary

Today it is one year since op number one. I feel a damn sight better today than I did this time a year ago!! I was thinking about it last night and in some ways it seems like yesterday - but in other ways it seems like a lifetime ago. Weird.

Today I am going into town to meet my 2 managers for a pre return to work chat (plus a pub lunch ). I know it's silly but I am really starting to get nervous about going back on Monday. Not like me at all. Hopefully seeing them today will make me feel calm again...