Getting Forgetful...

Not as easy to recall dates now... Chemo brain had well and truly taken over by now.

However, I do know that the last session of chemo was on Feb 3rd 2006. I can't tell you how good it feels when that last cannula is taken out of your hand!!

A whole week "off" then I had 3 weeks of radiotherapy. A bit like groundhog day, doing the same journey at the same time every day, seeing the same people...

Surprisingly, my skin held up quite well and didn't really show signs of burning until the last few days. I finished on 3rd March.

So, that's the poisoning and nuking done. Just 5 years of tablets and a drug trial to do now...

Oh, and my hair is regrowing :)

Edit I discovered an old diary after I typed this, so have updated my blog with all the ramblings from there. So this might now seem a bit out of order...

Please can I have my energy back?

I've been kind of festering for a few days. I've had no energy for anything, and haven't been able to get out of bed in a morning, haven't bothered getting dressed til teatime etc. I've been doing my own head in! They did say I might suffer with tiredness a couple of weeks after rads finished but I've been completely wiped out.

Another bit over with!

Today is the day I finished all the agressive treatments!! So I feel good about that.Time to move onto another phase of my life now. Starting tonight with my first rehearsal for the fashion show I'm taking part in in May. That's if it stops snowing and I can get there....

I'm bored of all this now...

The last few days haven't been that thrilling. I've been trekking to and from the hospital for radiotherapy, and this week there have been quite a few delays so I've not had much time for anything else. I'm half way there now, but it's starting to get me down a bit. I don't feel like I have much of a life outside "cancer world" at the moment. Started taking the Tamoxifen on Saturday too, and have had a painful leg ever since. It's not as bad today but if it keeps hurting I'll be off back to my GP.

One week down, 2 to go...

Another mixed day today.Been for my 5th zapping session. Only 2 weeks more of groundhog day to go through. It's so bizarre doing the same journey at the same time every day. This week has flown though, it's been nice having some structure and routine in my day for a change.

Been to see my GP too. He's given me another 3 month sick note. Also got my first lot of Tamoxifen. More new side effects to get my head round. Great.

Sick notes and sheep

The day started off quite bad, woke up feeling a bit blue. Tried to get an appointment with my GP cos my sick note has run out and I need to see him about starting Tamoxifen. The surgery's computer is down today and the not so helpful receptionist was her usual non pleasant self. When I put the phone down I just burst into tears. Daft or what?

Spoke to a nicer receptionist a bit later. Computer was still down, so I decided to give it a miss and will try again tomorrow. It annoys me that you can only ring up for an appointment on the day you need to see the GP. I knew 3 months ago I'd need to go back for my sick note, so why I couldn't book an appointment then I just do not know.

Had my now daily 20+ mile trip up to the hospital then. Started to cheer up a bit on the way there when I saw all the sheep, cows and horses in the fields on the way. I got befriended by quite a bonkers old dear in the waiting room who went on and on about the patient transport service while I was waiting. Her appointment is the one after me so I guess I'll get the same conversation tomorrow. Bless her.

More hospitals coming right up!

Radiotherapy starts tomorrow. Feel a bit nervous about that now...

I'm awake!

I was awake at 10am today!! Now that is an achievement this week.

Some post came today. It was for my radiotherapy planning appointment. It's been rescheduled cos one of the doctors has left. Hope it wasn't something I said!! It's next Thursday at 9:40am. Must find some more alarm clocks....