Good news or not?

Went swimming last night, and did 28 lengths. I think I was quicker than last week too so quite pleased about all that.

Oh, but my mums friend who went to the hospital with a lump last week went back to the hospital today. Results of the biopsy were inconclusive, so she has to go back in another 3 months... More waiting...

Waiting sucks.

Hanging around all day

I'm not a happy bunny today.

I had an appointment at 9:50am today with the Oncologist. This meant getting up quite early (for me!). I then sat and waited for over and hour and a half in a horrible crowded waiting room before I got to see anyone (apart from a nurse who weighed me when I first got there - put a few pounds on the last couple of months - oops ). Finally got into see the Onc just before 12, I was in and out in about 5 mins. He just asked me how rads went, and how I was finding Tamoxifen. To be honest, most of the appointment seemed to be for the benefit of the student doctor he had in with him. He asked her more questions than me.

Then I got sent up to the chemo suite (it was about 12 o clock then) for my infusion of zoledronic acid, and I was sat waiting up there until gone half 2!! The waiting room was full of really depressing people too (not their fault obviously, but it rubbed off on me). So, finally got out after 3 o’clock. I won't even mention the fun they had finding a vein...

So I was up at the hospital for 5 hours in total. All that for a 5 minute chat and a 15 minute infusion. Then I got caught up in all the school traffic on the way home. Not one of my better days. I think I will crack open a bottle of wine in a minute...I need a drink.

Fed up of waiting

I've had a funny couple of days recently. I guess it's down to the chemo again, but I've been feeling a bit fed up. One friend has just made me laugh though, I usually speak to her nearly every day but cos I've been a bit down and fed up I've not been in touch. I emailed her earlier and her reply was "blimey i woz beginnin to think u'd carked it!!!!". Nice to see my friends have the same sick sense of humour as me.

One of the things that has really been getting on my nerves this week is all the waiting I'm having to do. This is part of my current "waiting" list:

• Waiting for Jobcentre to sort out my claim for Incapacity benefit. I've filled in about 60 pages of claim forms in January, had 2 long phone calls with them and got an acknowledgement slip this morning telling me it was being "dealt with". Great.
• Waiting for the replacement memory to arrive for my (very slow) pc. I sent the faulty one back a week ago, and the new one hasn't turned up yet .
• Waiting for my hair to grow enough to go out uncovered.
• Waiting for this week to end so I can say chemo is over with...I could go on.... but I won't.

I'm one of those people who just sorts stuff out when they crop up, so am finding it really hard at the moment waiting and relying on other people. I want some control back in my life.Back on the hospital conveyer belt tomorrow for blood tests, then THE LAST CHEMO on Friday.